The things in my head go 'round and 'round

I sat on the deck this afternoon with a good cigar, and a good brew and just listened. 

We have a school that is about 50 yards from our yard.  When we bought this house back in 1996 it was one of the selling points.  That along with the fact that we were buying it from family and getting a great deal.  Back then the school house k-5, and that is were The Princess went to 1-4.  When she got into 5th grade the school was closed and she went to another one that is a couple of blocks in the opposite direction. 

Sitting here listening to the leaves, I can also hear the kids coming in from last recess.  I can hear the buzzer, and the buses pulling up getting ready to take them home.  The parents are queing up in the same place that I used to when I picked The Princess up.  The sound of little peoples voices is like a balm.  I love listening to them as they are chattering to one another.  When this was our school, it had a huge family feel to it.  We all knew one another, saw one another at all the functions, and watched out for one anothers kids.  If someone was late, the parents would hang around and let our kids play on the playground until the late parent arrived.  Now that we are years beyond that, I find how much I miss those days. 

I missed those days with my eldest daughter, and even though I had some of that time with my boys, I basically missed those days with my own kids.  I lived them vicariously through The Princess.  I am a flawed Father. 

Anyway.  Live life now.  Don’t look back on it and regret.  Life is to be lived now.

Namaste.

Today I bottled a batch of beer that should have turned out like an American Amber, but actually turned out quite a bit differently than what was expected.  Hit the highlighted areas and you can read about it.  I won’t waste your time now talking about it.

Though I was pleasantly surprised at the outcome, this could be another beer in our growing catalog.  Depending, of course, on how it tastes after conditioning in the bottle over the next couple of weeks.

Anyhooooo.  I have talked before about my neighbor the “Leaf Nazi“, and how one of our trees had it out for her.  Well today said tree gave it up and dropped its leaves.  And I, being the good homeowner I am, went out with my trusty leaf blower to get the leaves out to the curb.

And it worked wonderfully up until right after I finished with the leaves, and was putting the blower away.  This huge gust of wind came along and blew pretty much all of the leaves back into the yard. 

Stupid wind.  Now I have to do it all over again.

Maybe.

L8R

Have the day off today.  And the weather is pretty beautiful right now.  Indian Summer hot, but dry so that I don’t wilt when I go out.  And I have only gone out a couple of times today, because I have the day off.  Didn’t I mention that?

Went and refilled my Sertralin this morning.  Amazing how taking your meds on a regular basis takes care of a large part of the angst in your life.  I am finding it harder to write now that I am taking it also.  Guess to be an artist you have to struggle with your demons just a bit more than what I am doing now.

Any hooo….  making leftovers for dinner, and a couple of beers afterwards.  Life is pretty good right now.

namaste.