I could use some ice cream right about now. Mint chocolate chip, or a coffee/mocha chip would be nice. I can just about make out what it would taste like on my tongue. Because I have this stupid sugar addiction.
And because of that, I can’t have any. And because I can’t have any, I want it all that much more.
And, in all actuality, I COULD have some. But I do not want to have to deal with how I would feel like afterwards. Bloated. Tired. The self-loathing because I caved in to a substance I know could kill me.
No, I am not diabetic. But when it comes to sugar there is no “off” switch. I eat until I feel sick. And because sugar is a simple sugar it heads straight toward my ass, and gut. I have never liked being overweight. It isn’t fun. It sucks, to be quite honest. And now that I have gotten rid of over 50 lbs of the fat that I had been carrying, I don’t want to invite it back into my body.
And that means no sugar.
Even though right now I can taste that ice cream. Butter pecan……vanilla with caramel sauce….or chocolate sauce and peanuts.
Good lord, this is going to be a long evening……
6 comments
Comment by Penny on January 8, 2014 at 6:10 pm
Hang in there! I know sugary temptation lurks everywhere. At least, right now, you can keep sweet stuff out of your house…outta sight – outta mind. I live with a guy that never gains weight, has to eat chocolate candy every single day, and eats a big bowl of ice cream almost every single night while inviting me to join him in eating some, too!! ACK!! I just look at that bowl of ice cream and gain 5 lbs. if we could eliminate the chocolate and ice cream from the house, it would be soooo much easier to stay away from it. He’s killing me….just killing me. But, YOU can do this, Phil! Congrats on losing 50 lbs. already! That is great!! Keep your eye on the goal…..
Comment by wormdude@gmail.com on January 8, 2014 at 6:13 pm
Penny, I had actually had hoped to be down 100 lbs by this time. I started losing weight last year in January. Unfortunately, this summer I started playing that dangerous game with sugar again and have been messing around with the same 20 lbs since July. Gotta get it together and get rid of this other 50….
Comment by Patti on January 12, 2014 at 8:04 pm
Great job on the first 50!!! I, like you, lost a significant amount of weight (60 pounds) but it was over about 2 years. Needed to lose about 20 more. No matter what I did, no matter how much exercise I engaged in, no matter how much I switched up my routine, no matter what I ate, I was stuck. Three months. Then six months. Changed diet, changed workout, stuck. Nine months and I sank into a huge black hole and there was no light in there at all. Had to go back to anti-depressants. Stopped exercising altogether. Ate crap. Gained about 15 pounds. Got more depressed. Anti-depressants kicked in and made me scream “STOP!!!”
Started exercising again, got a grip on my junk food binge and took the 15 back off. Exercising, working out, and eating healthy, but giving myself what I want when I crave something…still not losing, not gaining. But healthy. I’m becoming ok with this. Still would like to lose those 20 pounds and tone, but…if it happens, it happens…
So, I’m the opposite of you and bunches of others. I will keep some junk in my house. I can stop (don’t have a problem with that). I will not deprive myself because then I obsess, when I obsess, I get depressed. Not going there again. (Off the meds, again.)
Be healthy. That doesn’t have to take an extremist attitude. I hope you find your balance!
Comment by wormdude@gmail.com on January 12, 2014 at 8:11 pm
Patti, for me…..I have to have an extremist mentality. I have a sensitivity to what sugar does to my body, and to my brain. I have come to realize that it is no different for me than being either a diabetic, or an alcoholic. Sugar is a poison to me.
Comment by Anonymous on January 17, 2014 at 11:21 pm
ICE CREAM is 1 of my biggest can’t live withouts!!!!
Comment by wormdude@gmail.com on January 17, 2014 at 11:22 pm
Sure, rub my face in it….